If I see you

Part 2

Over the past week, I have typed and deleted this post because this one took me down a path that I was trying to forget.  My last post “You were there too” hit home for a few and I’m so thankful for the feedback! It’s unfortunate those actions of others are more prevalent today than you know.  Why is it still happening?  When is enough, enough?

Please excuse the length of this post. Here it goes.

I was a young mother, married with two young kids, smiling and greeting everyone who passed our way at church, when someone who I thought was always kind towards me and my family, made a comment directly to me.  Now, I’m juggling kids, still greeting everyone around us. So, this person smiled at me, leaned in towards my ear, whispered, patted me on the back and kept smiling as they walked away.  No one else heard the comment.  I was stunned.  I’m still trying to maintain a smile and my composure. I can recall a weird feeling rising up and my eyes starting to burn, because I was holding back tears.  No one was going to see me like this, not even the person who made the comment.  Not sure what they were trying to accomplish.  It may have been innocent in their eyes, and it could have been the delivery, as well as the receipt of the information.  All I know, I didn’t like it and had to leave quickly! 

My mother, sister and aunts are powerhouses in my life and outside of them, other women who I thought laid a solid foundation of encouragement and strength is a beautiful thing to observe.  Titus 2; 3-5 that speaks of elders teaching the young how to live wisely, love their husbands and children, be pure, and work at home. This should be the practice of elders helping to shape and guide the young through this journey called life.  

Now please forgive me in advance for the next phrase.  “If I see you and don’t speak….”, because it may be best that I don’t speak.  So, I didn’t fit into the box that this person feels should be best. God created me in His image and likeness. God has provided and continues to provide every one of my needs according to His richness in glory. I thank God for allowing me to go through this because I needed to release it.

Be Kept!